June 12 2013

Ha ha saw this and thought yup there is me. It describes me to a T. It is really bad to do this when you screw up Monday don't let it ruin your week. I know I say that but it is hard and I am far from perfect. There are tons of things that I need to work on its an uphill battle and some day I feel like I am losing but I need to fight through it. Its hard and some days I feel like it is easier to give up than to fight.










 I think I should start doing this. I do it all the time I feel like baking a cake so I take it to the store to let everyone else eat it but I always seem to have tons as well. Jared never lets me bake there have been times where I would make cookies and he comes home to only a dozen left. I have eaten most and tons of cookie dough. Ha ha been getting better at not eating what I make. I love to bake but can't control it when I am done with it.

So today was a great day,
Breakfast:
2 slices of toast
4 tbsp chunky peanut butter
1 banana

Lunch:
2 slices bread
1 tbsp mayo
mustard
3 slices ham
1 apple
1 yogurt
1 yogurt tube

Dinner:
steak
potato salad
pickle
pineapple

So exercises been a down fall for me been really busy helping out of the store. When I am out doing delivers I will take the stairs and park a little further away from the door so I get some walking done. So when it calms down I will be going on more walks with the kids in the evening and spending time out side playing with them.

Results

So sorry I took a couple of days to write. I want to try and write everyday but it is hard. The weekend I had some visit from family and Sunday I was getting girls to there dance pic. I have been busy.
So over the past week I weighed myself last Monday didn't reveal anything because I didn't want to simple as that. I will let you know that I have lost 2 pounds not as much as I would like but down is down. Its a step in the right direction. I am hoping to lose the rest of the extra weight that I put on this next coming up week. I am going to try and exercises more. I find that the hardest to do I'm not a morning person and I relax in the evening after a busy day so I need to really try hard and do it. I want to be active again show my kids what to do show them how to be active and not couch potatoes.
Well I am going to try and work on this more and get back to what I was doing. 2 pounds in a week isn't bad. I am OK with that number.

Day 4& 5 revamp

Sorry I didn't post yesterday. I had family come to visit. Thursday was an OK day my my day was the same as the day before great things about left overs. So when you are busy you can come home and heat it up. Didn't do anything for exercises but starting for it. I been finding it hard to get back on track it is harder than starting your diet you get back to old habits and you don't really think you can do it but there is nothing you can do but push threw those thoughts and feelings.

Friday was a bad day I did screw up major. I had Tim Horton's for breakfast and Chinese for dinner. I had a little of the Chinese for lunch and the rest for dinner at 2:30 and didn't eat again that night I had a fudgesicle from DQ a treat from my Dad. In the evening my mom wanted to go for a walk to I went with her OH my I am so out of shape I had a hard time keeping up with her. My feet are still killing me. Sorry this post isn't that long but I am going to go and hang out with my kids.

Day 3 revamp

 So has anyone ever been on a diet and they are drawn into looking at food/recipes that look amazing and yummy. I do I find I go onto pinterest and look at stuff, through my recipe books (dessert), and find myself wanting to make and eat them. I don't buy tons of baking ingredients because if I don't have them in my house than I can't bake with them. I carry most of the basics but stuff like cocoa powder I don't buy till I need it. I need to find some great healthy tasty things to make and try. If any one has any great recipes that they would like to share with me that would be amazing. I find myself drawn into the unhealthy stuff or even simple tips on how to alter the recipe to make them a little more healthy. Sorry I am asking but I still learning how to eat properly.

This is me on a daily basis. Lately I haven't been feeling well and really tired when I get home at night and find that I try to go to bed early. I need to find the time to get healthy I have been sick so many times this past year I want to get back to the days were I wouldn't get sick for years. I remember when I was younger when everyone in my family had the flu and I didn't get it. I was healthy and fit and active. I found that I have gotten lazy as the years gone by and I want to be that active girl again I loved her.


So for breakfast and lunch have been the same these last couple of days. Its what I have in my cupboards I know its nothing exciting but its all I have right now. Unless you count the cinnamon toast crunch which is full of sugar.

SO I had
1 c bran flakes
1 banana
1/2 c 2% milk
Calories = 265


Lunch:

So the cucumbers and tomatoes I had in with my ham sandwich.

So It was

2 slices white bread
1 tbsp fat free mayo
a squirt of mustard
3 slices ham
1/2 c cucumbers
1/2 a medium tomato
( this is what was on my sandwich with the left over cucumbers just eating by them selves)
For my snack later on I had:
1/2 c strawberries
1 yogurt tube

Calories = 332


For dinner I had some chicken strips in the freezer so I took them out and fried them up I didn't use any oil. I had left over veggies and left over rice from the night before so I decided to make myself a simple stir fry with them after the where all fried together and warm I add 2 tbsp of my sweet chili Thai sauce that I get from Costco, it is amazing, for flavour. Sorry I don't have a picture but I forgot to take on

Dinner:
4 ounces peas and carrots
1/2 c brown rice
6 slices chicken strips
2 tbsp sweet chili Thai sauce
calories = 355

So later on at night I got into one of those OH my I am so hungry that I need something now moods. So I grabbed a slice of bread toasted it up added 2 tbsp chunky peanut butter and a banana. I love sliced banana on peanut butter toast and I also had a rice crispy treat.
For my snacks for the day
calories = 438

Total daily calories = 1390


For exercises I didn't do much like I said I wasn't feeling great, but at work I did deliveries and lifted heavy boxes so does that count. I mean I was walking and lifting. Other than that not a whole lot I really wish I was feeling a little better so that by Saturday I will have started to work on this part.

Day 2

 So it is really hard to jump back on board, getting back on track. You think to yourself that whats the point to all of it your just going to fail. Sometimes that is what I hear in my head that I am not going to succeed what's the point. I was browsing Pinterest when I came across a cool quote can't find it right know but it pretty much said that little voice in the back of your head is a liar. Don't listen to it push past it. Well some days are easier than others let me tell you. It's not easy at all I have failed many times, but in the past when I started to fall I didn't get back up and brush my knees off. I would stay down and defeated. I know it sounds bad but that is the truth. I am not going to let that happen yes I fell I stayed down for a couple of weeks but right now I am in the process of picking my self back up and pushing forward. I want to reach my goal this year I hate feeling fat and looking it too. I want to go into stores and be able to find my size with out coming out of them feeling even more depressed. Its starting to happen old cloths that I have not been able to wear since the beginning of my pregnancy with my 4 year old are starting to fit again. Pants are becoming baggier and had to go get a smaller belt. There have been small changes but big because it is a start.

So for breakfast I had the same I find the bran flakes with a banana fill me up till lunch. I find that when I have the bran flakes or any cereal by its self I am hungry right away so I try and put fruit in with it giving it a little more.

SO I had
1 c bran flakes
1 banana
1/2 c 2% milk
Calories = 265


Lunch:

So the cucumbers and tomatoes I had in with my ham sandwich.

So It was

2 slices white bread
1 tbsp fat free mayo
a squirt of mustard
3 slices ham
1/2 c cucumbers
1/2 a medium tomato
( this is what was on my sandwich with the left over cucumbers just eating by them selves)
For my snack later on I had:
1/2 c strawberries
1 yogurt tube

Calories = 332

For dinner before I had lunch I was trying to figure out something that I wanted for dinner. I was about to take out some ground turkey to make some turkey burgers when I found that I had a frozen already cooked pork chop so I took that out to defrost. Quick and easy since I wasn't home and eating till gone past 7 in the evening.

 3 ounces pork chop
2/3 c veggies
1/2 c brown rice

Calories = 367

Snack:
Thur out the day I had
2 rice crispy treats
1 apple
1 banana
1c strawberries
( I cut up the fruit and had a nice little homemade fruit salad in the evening)
 Calories = 418
Total daily calories = 1381

I also took a 20 min walk I was going to do more but not feeling great still head is really pounding away even pain killers aren't working. Getting a little cold it should be gone in a few days.

Revamp Day 1

 OK So I have been a rough couple of weeks. Like going off the deep end. Its been hard to reel back in and refocus, but this is what I am going to do. I don't want to ruin all the hard work that I already but in. I am doing lose it again I got family photos at the end of June and I hope to lose some more by the end of the month. Its been hard but in the past when it has gotten hard I gave up. I am going to push through it. Going to work on little things I gave up pop and its been since February and I don't drink it at all. Had a few sips here and there and think its not that great really. Next I need to work on my sweet and salty craving that I get sometimes. Chips are a downfall for me I love my chips they are what I reach for when I get that salty craving.Trying to teach my children to eat healthy and if I am not eating healthy than what are they going to learn.

Breakfast:
I was reaching for the chocolate cheerios that I bought for a treat for my kids but changed my mind I wasn't going to push my diet back a day because I have been doing that for the last couple of weeks. I think oh well I screwed up so I will be good tomorrow but that never happens.
So this is what I had instead

SO I had
1 c bran flakes
banana for some flavour with
1/2 c 2% milk
Calories = 265


Lunch:
So I was helping out at the store so I took lunch with me and taking lunch with me means that I can't be bad and change my mind which I thinks helps. I split it up and had my sandwich first and my strawberries and yogurt as a snack in the middle of the afternoon.

So the cucumbers and tomatoes I had in with my ham sandwich.

So It was

2 slices white bread
1 tbsp fat free mayo
a squirt of mustard
3 slices ham
1/2 c cucumbers
1/2 a medium tomato
( this is what was on my sandwich with the left over cucumbers just eating by them selves)
For my snack later on I had:
1/2 c strawberries
1 yogurt tube

Calories = 332

Dinner:
I had dinner at my mother in-laws house I went to pick up my kids because she was watching them yesterday afternoon and she had dinner for me.

Fish
1/2 c fruit salad
1/2 c potato salad
1/2 c salad

Calories = 535

Night snack I was craving something so I had
1 apple
1 yogurt tube
1 banana
Calories = 235

Total daily calories = 1366

I was going to come home and exercises but I had a killer head ache so I took some pain killers and went a laid down after I put my kids to bed.